1. gemini/why.

    It starts with you

    on a mattress in your parents’ old room,

    clipping your toenails into the room

    like the room will fade….

    and you will move

    onto other rooms

    and you will go

    to other places.

    Then the wedding,

    then the woman passed out

    in the driver’s seat

    at the order board at White Castle.

    We woke her up and she went

    ‘round to the pick up window

    like she knew exactly where she was.

    Then I wept

    with my face in your night shirt,

    trying hard as hell to say

    “until death separates us,”

    loosening the skin on your breastbone,

    I painted your nails

    and you sleep

    while I write all this down.

    There was a moth caught in the soapdish

    laminated in lye

    Will you still remember me well

    If I don’t get to two-o-o-five?

    my dead line Gemini

    When we’re on different sides of the globe

    I thought we’d keep our veins tangled

    like a pair of mic cables,

    and if there ain’t enough slack to reach

    that we’d solder them together

    and across oceans they’d stretch.

    Our faces reflected in separate windshields

    and all our body hair pricked up

    an elephant eyelash.

    Should we be tempted by thief or saint

    it seems I leave and you stay

    to crawl the cage and curse.

    But don’t regret the done dirt,

    there is no life plan set,

    you just swallow the cold

    and follow your breath until death.

    Now even if the will to sleep persists

    I can’t ‘cause a harsh cloth, it grazes my blisters.

    There was a moth caught in the soapdish

    laminated in lye

    Will you still remember me well

    If I don’t get to two-o-o-five?

    My dead line Gemini.

    Today I fell asleep in a bath of hair.

    Hair that once sprouted from my own

    white wet chalk follicles.

    I swallow a coal

    and follow my breath

    and I did it with the grapefruit soap

    thinking of you.

    Bathed, shaved, and oiled,

    your legs are two skinny dolphins swimming

    between the mattress and the layers of bedding

    turning in your drug dry sleep.

    When I ask you to kiss my pulse

    you offer to start the shower.

    I want a verb and you give me a noun.

    What do you dream up while I tongue you down?

    There was a moth caught in the soapdish

    laminated in lye

    Will you still remember me well

    If I don’t get to two-o-o-five?

    My dead line Gemini.

    You know my build.

    You know my size.

    The degree to which my eyes

    are astigmatic.

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